Thursday, September 20, 2012

Weight loss update: down 40 pounds peeps!!!

So, if you follow my blog, you will notice the lack of posts. Sorry about that, with school starting, it has taken us a while to get into the swing of things. My life is nothing but logistics, which I hate. My mornings consist of getting up at 5 to go for a walk/jog, get dressed, get kids up and dressed by 7, in the car by 7:15ish, get the two oldest to school, the two youngest to the babysitters, the hubby to work, then I get to work at 8. I barely have time to do anything lately, especially crafts or blogging. Which I hate. I hate logistics. I feel like a chauffeur or a maid, half the time, not a wife or a mother, or me for that matter. Thats what started my weight loss journey to begin with. I felt like I had lost "me." So I started exercising, which is definetly paying off. I have now lost 40 pounds. I will now say my actual weight. 245. Its hurts to write it but if I think that 40 pounds ago, I was 285. I can proudly say the other number. GO ME!!

Love this. Think this will become my new background on my android!

Another thing I am doing to reconnect me to myself is I am going to get a tattoo at the end of the month. I am so excited. I have been wanting to do this for years, but there was never time, money or I was pregnant (I think I was pregnant for like 5 years straight, so that kind of dampens any chance getting a tattoo!) So, I am getting it on my wrist and this is what I want...

I am going to get it put on my wrist. Not big, but big enough to read it. Whatcha think! 

Anyway, I have never been able to say this before (which is sad since I am 33!) but I am really proud of myself. I have been in a bad place in my head for too long and I realized I was tired of being miserable. Tired of being fat. Tired of disappearing into the crowd. I used to pride myself on standing out, being a bit of an odd ball, being different. I try to instill that sense of originality in my kids. I don't want them to be one of the masses. I want them to stand out because they are smart, beautiful, and one of a kind. But I have to start with myself before I can convince them of this. Luckily, they are starting to see the changes. Kiera, minion #2, tells me I am beautiful everyday, and she hasn't said that to me until the last couple of months. It makes me melt and then I tell her she is also beautiful, and smart and funny and .....the list goes on. So, I guess I am doing something right...


5 comments:

  1. Leslie, WOW i am so proud of you! 40 lbs is a lot of weight girl. That's fantastic. I am also planning my next 2 tattoos.I have 3 already and i need more. My boyfriend this Friday to get his sleeve on arm started. Its his first and he's nervous but i'm so excited. You are smart and beautiful!

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    1. Thanks so much. I never get tired of hearing that! Wow, a sleeve, that's awesome! Tell him good luck. I want to see it when its done!!!

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  2. Les, I am really proud of you. Less for the 40 pounds, which is fantastic in-and-of-itself, but more for the "outlook"... the epiphany. Convincing YOURSELF that you are "worth" the effort, and that you have goals to attain, is half the battle. I love that you want to stand out. That's one of your best qualities, and I hate that you feel like you've lost that. I will be rooting you on, all the way, in your quest to get it back. You are beautiful, smart, and ridiculously creative, and I am glad that you are focusing on making yourself a good example for your kids. Way to go, girl! Proud of you. =)

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    1. You made me cry, thanks for that. I can't begin to tell you how much I need to hear stuff like that.

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    2. Well, honestly, like Kiera (and you), I'm not sure I've ever said "I'm proud of you" before. =) Good job, sis.

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